About the NAW
Membership of the NAW is open to widows and widowers and to other men and women whose partners have died. Although most of our members are in their 70s a surprisingly high percentage of them came into the organisation in their fifties and early sixties - at a time when they felt too old to go out clubbing but too young to sit in the corner with some comfy slippers. Some of our members though are very young, loosing their partners at a time when a whole lifetime seemed to lie ahead.
Although the organisation takes a keen interest in economic issues, pensions and benefits for example, our raison d’etre is to create social opportunities for widows and widowers and to help each other by creating a strong and supportive network.
For those who need more personal and immediate support we run a confidential telephone befriending service where we try to match the bereavement experience of the (usually recently) bereaved caller with the “more experienced” widow.
At the moment, the NAW has over 40 branches meeting at least monthly but usually supplementing these branch meetings with other events and activities. There are also over 20 areas, mainly based on counties but including some metropolitan areas, where county/area coordinators encourage members to meet up for a trip to the theatre, a meal out, a walk in the country, a coffee morning in someone’s home etc. There is also a growing programme of holidays both in the UK and overseas.
I lost my husband 4 months ago, after a very short illness. Married for 40 years. I carry on in my demanding job but I am desperate in private. any suggestions?
I understand how you feel - I lost my Husband 2 months ago after a short illness - we were married for 33 years.
I returned to my demanding job as a Manager a couple of weeks after the funeral.
I appear to be functioning at work but at home every morning is a struggle to get out of bed and weekends are a nightmare.
I have read all sorts of books on how to cope and carry on and the message is always the same - it will get better and you must keep telling yourself this & that there are so many people going through the same thing.
Best Wishes
Yvonne
Hi Sandra and Yvonne
Being “desperate”, finding it “a struggle” and “a nightmare” are not unusual - as every widow knows. In fact, it’s normal - but a normality we would rather not know about.The worst thing that can happen to you has now happened, and very recently at that. You can’t expect to “snap out of it” and anyone who thinks you can has never been in our position. Don’t push yourself too much. If friends do ask you out, think about it. Or just go out on your own - little by little….
It’s not easy, especially at first, and for a while it may just be impossible but the time will come when, with a bit of effort, you might be able to face all sorts of things that now seem totally impossible. And yes Yvonne it does get easier. You Yvonne have already achieved a lot. You may feel like a zombie but believe me if you are functioning at all you are doing well! Don’t be so hard on yourself.
You both will get through it. Really…. I thought I would never stop crying.
Do you know other widows? There are plenty of us out there! Is there a branch of the NAW near you? Ring Carrie the NAW administrator (details on the web site) and ask her what the position is. For me, the NAW was a lifeline and through it I have made some good friends - who really do understand because we are all in the same boat.
Incidentally, most of the books out there deal with bereavement in general whereas loosing the person you have chosen to spend your life with is totally different. That’s why I wrote the BBC/NAW booklet “Loosing your partner”. I think Carrie has a few spare copies -free - if you haven’t seen it.
Keep in touch!
Reading your comments and advise have been a great comfort. I suddenly lost my dear husband just two months ago and cannot explain the grief I am going through. I just feel as if my world has ended.
I lost my husband just over 10 months ago and feel as though I have been to hell and back! I have family quite close by but dont really have any friends as I never really made friends much as ‘he’ was my best friend. Apart from having friends who are ‘couples’ I feel quite alone. I work full time I feel that I should really go into theatre as I can often give an oscar-winning performance to cover my true feelings. I hope that I will be able to make new friends who understand.
My wife died about 6 weeks ago from a very aggressive cancer. I thought I could cope with life, but over the last few days I have had great difficulty in managing myself. I have some excellent friends and some professional help, but there are just times when I can’t seem to find my way ahead. My wife & I had known one another for 42 years, married for 39 of them, and she died one day after our 39th wedding anniversary. I have difficulty at times trying to tell people how I feel because I feel so strange at times and its difficult to describe the feelings because I’ve never had these feelings before. I know I musn’t curl up in bed and never get up because I know thats not what my wife would have wanted. But some days it is very difficult to face the world!
I am trying to pluck up the courage to go to a branch meeting - there a several near to where I live but I fear that as most are during the day everyone will be of retirement age ( I am 53 )I do go out occasionally but with friends and relatives who are couples and although it is good to spend some time with them it hurts so much that my Husband isn’t there.
I hate these short days and dark evenings and often cry on the way home to an empty house. I know I am fortunate that my two children still live at home but they are trying to live their own lives and I feel like I am so clingy at the moment.
It is now 3 months since my Husband died and the constant anxiety is so hard to deal with.
Is there an NAW near Abingdon or Oxford? It is now 16 months since my husband died and I would like to get out more and not rely on friends (usually couples) or my daughter. I work full-time which helps but weekends are not so good.
Hi Dorothy
Yes there is a branch in Oxford. Please contact Joyce on 01865559081. Good luck! Do let me know how you get on.
Best wishes
Jean
Hi Doreen
Re Oxford, please see my comment above. I’ll tell Joyce to expect your call.
Best wishes
Jean
Yvonne
I too am 53 and my husband passed away 5 days ago, I would like to talk to someone of my age who has had similar experiences. I’m not sure where to turn at the moment.
I would like to go to a branch meeting, are there any in Yorkshire?
Gillian
Gillian
Have you signed up for the forum? I have but no-one seems to be using it just now
Feel free to drop me an E mail
I am 50 years of age and lost my husband on christmas eve, I feel like I am a broken person and can not stop crying.
Is there a NAW anywhere in NE London /Essex area? I live in South Woodford. My husband died very suddenly 4 months ago
Just found NAW, can anyone tell me if NAW have meetings in Newcastle upon Tyne?
Lost my wife in June 06 to Breast Cancer at 51 I’m 55 not sure if it gets any easier or you just get used to it
I’m 28 i lost my husband Mark 26th Aug last year after not even reaching our 1st wedding anniversary (17th Sept).
He died in a motorcycle accident after he was hit off his motorbike by a car, he was only 27.
Although i have an amazing family and group of friends i don’t know anyone who has lost their husband this young who can relate to what i’m going through.
I have so far done a really good job of making everyone think i’m coping really well but the front is starting to crack and i’m not sure how much longer i can keep it up.
It all happened so quickly i still expect him to come walking through the door.
Julia I’ve just seen your note asking if the NAW organise events in N. London or Essex, the answer is “yes” - there is a Great London Group and an Essex Group. If you go to the NAW home page and follow the events tab at the top of the page then you’ll get the contact details for myself (I run Essex) and the London co-ordinator, or you can contact Head Office and they’ll put you in touch with us.
All the best
Shirley Wood
I lost my husband suddenly following a heart attack he was 52 I’m 39. we have 3 young sonsand one is autistic.Are there any meetings in the Ealing area?
Hi Jane
Yes, there are regular NAW meetings in London - not specifically Ealing. I’ll ask the London coordinator to contact you.
Hope to meet you at one of them!
Jean
It’s comforting to read other widows experiences,you feel so alone with your grief. My dear husband Al died a painful death (Mesothelioma) on January 11th. I feel very alone, not only with the grief but with trying to sort out financial matters.
After sharing our lives for 28 years I am finding it difficult, is ther a club near where I live in Leamington Spa?
Penny
Could anyone tell me if there is a NAW in Surrey?
My Bereavement Group has just broken up unfortunately due to the person who ran it moving home.
I have been widowed for just over 2 years and I am still having some very bad times. We were married 46 years
Hi Sandra
Yes, there is a group for members in Surrey. The coordinators name is Betty and if you ring the office (02476634848) they will be able to put you in touch.
Unfortunately one of our two administrators is on sick leave and the other will not be there till Monday. If you don’t want to wait, feel free to write another comment on the blog giving me your phone number and I’ll pass it on to Betty.
At no point will your number be public as I am able to “moderate” all comments before making them live - so I shall just delete your information!
You’ll like Betty. She has a good group. Either she or the office will give you info about becoming a member.
HI Penny
There’s a group meets at Coventry - sadly not Leamington Spa. Is this possible for you. If so let me know and I’ll give you more details. I think we do have other members at Leamington though. Perhaps we might put you in touch?
Jean
I lost my husband in August last year and it seems that every day is worse than the next i had known him from being 15 years old and i am now 57yrs old we had been married over 30 years and i cannot cope with being without him, he was retired but i still worked and he was always there at home whenever i came in. I have a family but they have there own life and they are greiving also. I saw a councillor this morning for the first time , i dont know wheteher it will help or not. I am frightened to live without him and i am frightened to die without him, i hope this does not sound strange, there seem to be a huge black hole wher he should be and the pain is terrifying. He was not ill very long, but although he must have been in pain he never said anything till it was too late, so many things left unsaid, he is my every thought every minute of every day. I go to work and put on a face , as you do, bu t when i come home i fall apart, please tell me this gets better, because it is so hard, so very hard.
Could you please put me in touch with a group in my area : I live in Thanet, East Kent. My husband died seven months ago very suddenly and I am just about existing. Its too deep to find the words.
Lesley
I understand that you are feeling unbelievably awful. I am so sorry. I shall ask one of our NAW Kent members, her name is Alison, to get in touch with you.
Alternatively, if you would like to talk to me, e mail your phone number to jean @nawidows.org.uk and I’ll give you a call.
Best wishes
Jean
Is there a branch in Everett, Washington?
Hi Carmen
Sorry to tell you that the National Association of Widows is a UK based organisation - I think Everett is in the US. So sorry we can’t help!
If you know of any similar organisations to ours in the US I would love to know.
My very best wishes to you.
Jean
Its coming up to the first anniversary of my husbands death. He was 60 and died of prostate cancer two years after being diagnosed. I have had some terrible times but thought I was improving. For the past week I have thought of nothing else and I am in a state again - just wanting to shut myself away and cry. I suspect I am getting anxious about how I am going to deal with “the day”. The same has happened to me leading up to other anniversaries, ie. wedding anniversary, birthdays. I cant decide if to ask someone to spend the day with me or if I should be alone. Something tells me I should be alone but I am frightened - of what I don’t really know.
Its coming up to the first anniversary of my husbands death. I loved him so much. He was 60 when he died and had been diagnosed with prostate cancer 2 years prior to his death. I get so angry with him sometimes because I told him to go to the doctors 18 months before he actually went and then it was too late. I thought I was doing quite well but I am falling to pieces again and I suspect it is due to the lead up to the anniversary of his death. I dont know if to arrange to be with someone or to be alone. Something tells me it would be wise to spend the day alone but I’m frightened but I’m not sure what of.
My hysband Mke was tragically killed in a fatal road accident just seven weeks ago. He was on only 47 (a week before his 48th birthday and Valentine’s Day) and I am 55. I feel it should have been me who died as I was older than him. I was not with him in the car when it happeden. His injuries were so bad (he had a branch of a tree through his mouth and neck which severed the carotid artery (sorry to be so graphic).
It’s so hard without him. We had been married almost 21 years and been together for 25. We never had children and my parents are no longer alive. I now feel that there is nobody left in my life who loves me unconditionally (warts and all as they say).
I cry every time I wak up and everytime I go to bed. I very rarely sleep and am finding it very hard to cope with just ‘existing’. I feel my life is over and I am just waiting yntil my husband comes and takes me back with him wherever he is.
Sunday was the worse day since he was taken from me. I felt I’d never stop crying. I phoned and a friend and she came to comfort me and she just wished she could ‘magic’ Mike back into my life again, as he is the only one who can take away this awful pain I’m feeling.
Will I ever be happy again? I can’t see that at the moment. I need to deal with the police regularly. They are conducting the investigation. And I have been told that it could take up to a year before the Coroners Inquest. Also dealing with my husband’s estate has been very exhausting and fraught with barriers.
I have been reading all the comments made by people suffering the same agony and grief as me and I understand I am not alone. It has been theraputic to put my thoughts down in words. Thank you for taking the time to read this and my heart goes out to all of you who are feeling alone and isolated. My husband was my whole world and now I have to face life without him and try and look forwad to facing a different but hopefully happy future.
Is there a group I could attend in my area. I live near Dover in Kent. Thank you NAW for beieng there.
Sincerely Lin Farbrace
I lost my husband of 29 years 10 weeks ago. He was hit on his motorcycle by a lady making a left hand turn. He just turned 48 on Feb 1st. We would have celebrated our 29th anniversary this July. I am only 44 and feel that my life is over !!!!! : { My friends try to help but they don’t understand how it feels to be in a room full of people and still feel ALONE !!!!
I lost my husband on 18th March with bowel cancer he was only 51 and i miss him so much it really hurts .He was only diagnosed in December so it was really quick . i am now back at work but it is so hard!! I find the weekends awful and yes i know what it is like to be alone in a room full of people. I am lucky i have really good friends and family who are helping and i am taking each day as it comes
my husband died four weeks ago he had leukeamia for six years but was treated with tablets and never looked or felt ill untill dec 07 he had chemotherapy and radiotherapy for three months and we thought he would get better . his death was so sudden and so unexpected i feel as though ive been hit with a sledghammer. we have been married fifty years inseptember and he was only 67 . i have a wonderful family who live close to me but just do not know how i am going to exist without him . help
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I lost my husband Dave on 1st March after a short illness, St. Davids Day and he was a Saint, he didn’t complain at all.
We were married for 42 years and thought as everybody does that we had a good fews years ahead of us. I still cannot believe what has happened. I am 62 years old, which may sound old to some, but I feel to young to be a widow. It would be nice to meet up with others in the same situation.
Hi
I forgot to ask you if there is a branch on the Isle of Wight, if not I could always get over to the mainland.
I lost my husband of 5 years on the 18th April this year. He was 36, i am 42.
He drowned in a tragic boating accident in Dubai, we were there for his best friends wedding.
We have four children, (12, 10) step sons and a daughter of 4 and a son 22 months.
My wonderful lively husband was found floating in the sea after a stupid boating trip went wrong, i am lost, crushed without him and not dealing with it very well……as in i am drinking a night, feeling rough every day and hideously lonely without my gorgeous boy.
Cant face the journey ahead of me,,,,,, i know whats ahead and it’s such a long process. If you need to communicate, i would be more than happy to do so.
Try to take care of yourself and keep busy.
i lost my husband 9 months ago and i am not coping with it all every day seems a nightmare. i have sold my villa in spain and moving back to england wandsworth common my family live near here. i am not on any tablets but i feel i have to speak to some one as i have no one here
Hi Christina
You may like to know that there is a very active London NAW group. I am sure you would find the companionship of others similarly placed a great help/ I know I did. Give the NAW office a ring 08458382261and ask for Carrie. She will send you a pack and tell you about the London group. Incidentally, if you like, feel free to go to a couple of the London events before you become a member ((£16 annually). Most people feel a bit uncertain at first but do go if you can - you’ll be glad you did.
Best wishes
Jean
i would like to talk to someone who i can talk to i have lost richard only one week but i have no clse family and friends people are helping on a practical level but i need someone i can talk to
Hi Celia
One week ago is so recent. You will be feeling utterly desolate right now. I am so glad that you have fiends and family around you but, of course, when you get into your bed at night, or when they’ve gone home you will feel very alone…
Please do contact the NAW and get Carrie in our office (0845 838 2261) to send you a membership pack. There may be events near to where you live and it really does help to talk to others who have lived through what you are feeling at this moment. We also have a befriending service for members - a list of people (all people whose partners have died) - who wuld be happy to talk to you at any time.
And of course you can write a post on this blog as you have done already. We have a private section for members on our web site too.
Best wishes - you are in my thoughts.
Jean
I have everything that I need including, the Lord to help me, but I have been crying every day for 9 months since Nov 4, 2007 when my husband of 55 years died suddenly of a heart attack while we were on vacation.
My kids and grandkids are great and so helpful. And they always include me and come and call or e-mail daily.
I have lots of friends in my church and out of my church that call and we go places and do lots of stuff.
But, I just can’t stop crying when I am alone.
Is this normal?
Why can’t I get a grip?
Beth
I lost my husband on March 29th 2008 the day before our 47th Wedding Anniversary. I have a wonderful family,but they are very busy with their own lives,and I am feeling very lost and so alone,is there a branch near to where I live in Feltham Middlesex.I have phoned head office for an information pack.
Diane.
I have been searching the web to find some words to help me cope. My hustband died last Monday (4th August) afte only having been diagnosed with brain tumours 3 weeks earlier. Before that he was showing no symptoms at all. I am emerging from the worlds of the hospital and the hospice into a nightmare of missing him so badly. Reading some of the comments made me feel a little less alone. I have virtually no family but caring and supportive friends (all in couples). Is there an Isle of Wight branch please?
My husband died a month ago, but things don’t get any easier I think I’m still numb. I know he’s dead ‘cos he died in my arms, but I still can’t believe it.
there is no link to contact the people who have sent in their comments. How does one get in touch?
My husband, aged 60, died in May 08 of a heart attack whilst cycling up a mountain. A trip I never wanted him to do given his age and fitness. Whilst obviously being devastated and probably only just coming through the shock I already know I cannot spend much of my time with my mostly married friends because of the subjects that are discussed and the fact that they have no idea what I am going through. Individually friends neighbours and family have been absolutely fantastic in their support for me but now I am finding myself in group situations it is becoming unbearable.
I am 59 very fit active and lively and was very much looking forward to retirement with my husband when we were going to travel and make the most of what we assumed would be at least the next 10 years We have 3 children who are independent but obviously need a lot of support from me at the moment.
I know it is early days but are there not any other women out there who feel sooner or later they have to pick themselves up and make the most of the time they have left - to find like-minded friends in the same situation to do things with - it would be great to hear from you
My husband died at Easter - he went out for a walk on one of his favourite fells and never returned. Altough I had to identify his body, it was only 3 months later at the inquest that I learned he had fallen 150 metres, and how horrific his injuries were. There was a lot of local publicity, and more after the inquest - in some ways supportive, but very hard to cope with.
My children have been very supportive, despite their own shock and grief, and the birth of a new grandson last month was a blessing. But life seems to be on hold. I’ve found that some people are a great help to talk to - especially one friend who is also a widow - but others can’t cope with me unless I pretend I’m “fine”. I seem to oscillate between stretches of “normality” and behaviour that is just to block out reality. Once I stopped being totally numb, I got involved in frenetic activity - anything to stop me thinking / feeling. Lately I’ve been keeping myself from facing reality by playing computer word games - a sort of drug at the moment. So coming across your website has been a relief.
I live in the Lake District, and at the moment can’t even bear to look at the hills. I’m planning nto move very soon back to Dorking in Surrey, where we spent the first 25 years of our marriage. Are there any NAW groups in that area?
Is there a branch of NAW in Suffolk or maybe in East Anglia somewhere?
I lost my husband 2 weeks ago 25th august 2008 he was my best friend and we did everything together. We have never been apart and now I dont think I can go on. I cannot stop crying and am afraid to go out. I have 2 children that live near by but it is not the same. I am 50 years old and feel lost and alone.
just found website….Is there a branch in Durham or nearby …see someone has asked about newcastle branch but I cant see an answer. I lost my husband of 39yrs christmas 2007 I am 58 feel my life is o
ver ..when does the pain ease? I need to talk to someone.
I just happened upon this website and read that this group is only a UK organizatiion. I live in Pittsburgh , Pa in the US… I, too, have lost my husband of 20 years, 20 years of living in Camelot… whether it is the English Camelot of the American Camelot, I don’t know… But I did… And, as is everyone else the ” time heals all wounds” adage may or may not be happening. In my heart I still cry every day after 2 years and my body still hurts as it did when he was diagnosed over 3 years ago..
Since I am now retired, at a young age 61, I would like information on the NAW, to maybe, start an organization in the US starting the in Pittsburgh, Pa area.
This work may help me with the pain and infact may help others, as I have come in contact with a lot of young widows and widowers. If someone would send me the information via e-mail or regular mail it would be greatly appreciated. I am, in fact, greatly interested in finding facts about the younger widow/widowers, age 40-65, the non-traditional age, but seems to be more prevalant than I would have ever believed… All I can ever tell anyone and I tell my self daily is ” one day at a time”
Thank you for you consideration, thoughts, and attention.
My address for e-mail is above and my address is
Cyntha Galish
135 Jarod Dr
Moon Township, Pa 15108
Hi - My dad died on 8 Jan 09 of a sudden heart attack, leaving a wife (my mum) after 38 years of marriage. He was 62.
My sister and I do all we can but we can see mum (who is 57) sinking into a lonely world. We do all we can, inviting her round for coffee/tea and dropping in on her for same. She no longer leave the house (she is incable of work due to illness).
I wanted to find out whether there were any meetings for widows/widowers who are in the same boat and am surprised to note there isnt such a thing in our area (Leeds).
Its something I would consider setting up in my area but wanted to know if I am looking in the wrong place - does anyone know of anywhere in my area where lonely bereaved people can meet for social events, coffee and a chat to get them out of their houses. Regards Sara
I was widowed on 15th March 20009, i am devastated, we thought he had strained a muscle in his back while at the gym but it turned out to be cancer of the spine and had spread to his lungs and liver, he was very fit and active so it came as agreat shock, i feel like my life is over, i am 70 but still thought we had several happy years to come. Like many people i have read about on this website i feel like i am putting on a show for my family who who are also grieving. We had been married for almost forty five years so he is there in everything i do.Is there a naw meeting in Bolton Lancashire, please let me know if you can, i am desperate to talk to someone in the same situation, Thank you.
It has been very comforting reading some of the storieson your website,
I lost my husband suddenly on 24th March ‘09 he was 58 years of age. We had been together for 39 years (34 married). I too am finding it very difficult to cope. From being a very confident person who was always going out, I now find that I cannot venture out of the house without having panic attacks and crying at the slightest thing. I only feel safe in our room. I have been reading letters from women who are feeling the same way as me, and it helps to know that these terrible feelings are shared by all of us. I think it will help at some point to find a branch of the NAW close to my home, but not just yet, as everything is too ‘raw’ at the moment.
Hello Mary
I am glad it helps you to know that many of us are going through, and many of us have gone through, what you are feling now. It’s very hard I know.
If there is an NAW group near you I am sure it would help - after all, everybody there will be in the same boat as you.
If you like to let me know via this blog the town where you live , I’ll let you know if there is a group near you. If there is you’ll be able to get in touch with them when you are ready.
Thinking of you.
Jean
I was widowed at 47 and am now 64. Does anyone know of and groups in Newcastle upon Tyne area as I have become more lonely than ever this past year
I was suddenly widowed 5 yrs ago this june and get very lonely i was wondering if there is a group in Portsmouth or Waterlooville hampshire,i am 63 now and feel i really need to make some single friend’s, dont get me wrong my married friend’s have and are wonderful but do feel like a spare wheel at time’s.
Hello there,
I just read Margardet Lush’s comment about giving an “oscar winning performance” to cover her feelings about the death of her husband. I can’t even begin to describe how much I relate to that well expressed feeling. I came across this site incidentally while surfing the web for Singles holidays, on a very lonely and desolate Saturday without my dear sweet kind gentle peace-loving husband. I’ve been having an email conversation with the Samaritans because I had thoughts of ending my life, and (to be honest) I still can’t find a reason (apart from my boys) for scraping by in this now meaningless existence. Sorry, I know this doesn’t make for easy reading. My husband died and it’s how I feel.
Kate
I lost my husband on good friday. He died from an infection he catch in the hospital. He was 53 years old and we had been married for 30 years. He was also my business partner. My family are very close. However I have no comfort in my work as he was part of it and home is so lonely. Everyone does say time will heal and I can appreciate this but it is now, when one really wants to not wake up and join their love one. I feel especially hurt as I and he were cheated of the best time of our lives. How does one carry on/
Yours
Jan
Hello Jan
You carry on just by carrying on…
There is no quick fix and no magic wand. However, you are going to feel much etter than you do now. It may take a while - it almost certainly will - so don’t despair.
What you are feeling has been experienced by so many of us. I identified with your comments about your husband being your business partner as well as being the man with whom you wanted to share your life. That was my position too and I just felt crushed from all sides…
I found the support of the NAW tremendously helpful - to know that I wasn’t alone. I didn’t live near a Branch or a Getting Together group but I joined anyway and found that in helping others I was helping myself too.
Try ringing Carrie (the NAW senior administrator) on 02476634848 and ask her if there are any activities/ meetings near you.
Good luck - and keep in touch. I’ll be thinking of you!
Best wishes
jean
My husband died in May 2009 suddenly and unexpectedly. We had known each 40 years. I am 57 and still working and have just started to return work allbeit part time for now. I find the evenings very difficult and have difficulty sleeping. I have 2 grown up children who have been incredibly supportive. I also have a beautiful 15 month old granddaughter who quite often stays with me at weekends. I know I am lucky with the amount of family and friends who call round or take me out. I am struggling with my emotions, it is a bit like being on a see-saw. I have been told things will improve in time, but at this point in time I find it hard to believe. We should have been celebrating my husband’s 60th birthday this year with a cruise and stay holiday, which we were both excited about. To me at this point in time the future looks bleak without my partner.
i lost my husband at the age of 51 in jan 08 every thing was fine at first my friends and family were around and phoned quite offten once that year was over i dont get so many nowand they are not so forthcoming and i hardley see them nowi am very lonley
Hi my name is Linda and i lost my husband Geoff on the 6TH October 2008, i also cry most days and find this journey so difficult people think your fine but when i am alone i am just so lonely and miss my wonderful husband so much linda